This seems apropos having been to the zoo this past weekend- the tigers were out!
Big difference between Mill Mountain Zoo and The Cincinnati Zoo; MM is so small Ruby was a real star.
Today’s Journal Entry
December 18th, 2006. Nubie’s last day.
I have made the difficult decision to euthanize my dog
today. She is nearly blind, nearly deaf, confused, incontinent, and
increasingly unable to get up or move around easily. She walks with her tail
between her legs Sometimes she can’t get
up at all.. I have noted this for some time, but she was still having “good
days.” She enjoys her food, being petted, and seems content enough just sitting
and being. I was feeling very wrong about my decision yesterday as she followed
me around the property and was getting around well enough. She dragged one back
leg a little but otherwise did O.K.
Last night I let her out one more time and she just kept
walking, head pointed forward, right for the embankment - I had to run and
grasp her collar and say “No, Nubie, honey, this way.” I guess today she will
go off a bigger embankment.
I had Mike dig the hole weeks ago, and he walked her around
the property today, letting her do one last circuit. He is meeting me in town
with the dog in two hours. I wonder if she sniffed her final resting spot and
wondered what it was.
A few mornings ago, I woke up wondering if tigers had an
immortal soul, and if they did, did they have their own heaven? Is there room for tigers in heaven with men?
Ruby, the Mill Mountain Zoo tiger, was euthanized Dec 10th, and
though I visited her only once in all the time I have lived here, the news hit
me pretty hard. I like the idea of her there, and with Nubie’s impending date
with the inevitable looming and my mother’s terminal illness, anything having
to do with the death of someone loved is rough these days. I read part of a
child’s tribute to her in the paper yesterday, before the page swam out of
focus I noted that the child was writing condolences to the zoo staff, stating
“ it must be hard to lose a tiger that glory is.” Children are so apt sometimes.
A tiger that glorious.
A tiger that glory is.
A black lab that glory is.
Goodbye to my faithful friend, I hope you can forgive me if
I ever wasn’t Mom enough, if I ever took you for granted.